As far I know I should have some particular ways of expressing my emotions that will present me as an individual. I am not sure if I have any. I am having some very bad feeling for some particular reasons and I wanted to express those as my instinct says. I want to go somewhere that I even don’t know, I want to be so isolate and shed some tears and wash away what hurting me.
But no way – my universe never allows me doing so. I have lot of targets to fulfil, many schedules to meet. I am not that much big person but I already could find so many obstacles around me.
Some people say it’s my personal problem. I should be able to break all these if I wish. Yes, I also think so and I desperately want to do so. But I don’t know why I can’t.
Well, don’t feel pity for me. I think I’ve exaggerated my thoughts a bit. But it’s true and I think many people in this materialistic life have similar problems like me.
It’s natural that my work should have the reflection of my mental condition. But it won’t happen if you work in a typical corporate environment. They maintain such a work flow where you will behave just like a machine and it doesn’t matter what you have in your mind. You are just a performer and you are bound to perform your roll as the script says.