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Fearing the Unknown but I’m Curious

We spend most of our time figuring out – what’s coming next. In most cases we predict the wrong or often we forget what we’ve predicted. The people whom we recognise as successful are mostly doers, who hardly get any time to think about the future.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about Elon Musk or Bill Gates. They are successful and they talk about future a lot. But they are too heavy to take them as role models. I’m talking about people around me who invented some hacks to have a relatively better life. Most of them are just brave people.

It’s really not so important to be a master on how accurately someone can predict the future. We live in present and we hardly have any control over it. Fearing the future is good as it indicates about taking some risks or getting out of the comfort zone. Bravery is being the only one who knows you’re afraid.

To a brave man, good and bad luck are like his left and right hand. He uses both.

St. Catherine of Siena

Sometimes we make mistakes in distinguishing the differences between bravery and stupidity. It’s okay, some stupidities actually made this world a better place.

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Building an Internet Company in Bangladesh

these slides were presented at Dhaka Startup Weekend, held in 10 – 12 January 2013. the learnings are real and you can ask for the details. we have the stories to tell you.

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201loves202.com

so, here i am!

last month i’ve started another website www.201loves202.com. there is a long story behind the name. 201 was my class role and 202 was her. this website is totally focused on our works. so we are adding all our academic and professional works there. as well as we are running there a microblog to let you know about our new ideas.

please give us a visit!

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They are More Intelligent!

It always grab my interest when it’s something about typography. An alphabet isn’t just a character, often it represents some inner meanings – the passion, the anger.

I love to see when it’s very spontaneous, beyond the rules. My nephew was creating something for his class party. He is just 8 and I was really surprised to see when he asked me to see his creation.

I can’t remember any brilliancy like that from my childhood, but I am feeling really good to see someone growing more intelligent.

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typography and book design

prokriti o shilpo - book illustration
the texts were given and there were instructions about the size and color references. the illustration and total work was done on illustrator cs4! click on the image to view other pages.

i was writing my dissertation about bangla typography… i am in a hurry – i have just few more hours to complete all the things. when i was searching my archive for some of my works as examples, i’ve found some works which should be shared. they are not something very exceptional but i can remember some good experiences of when they were done.

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A Dream, a Nightmare

For last two and half years I’ve spent many hours looking through this window and saw the changes. Some changes were so massive that it was hard to remember what were in the past. After four and half years of my involvement with ebizzsol, I’ve decided to leave!

It was obvious and long pending. I wanted to believe some other things but everyone knew the reality before I came to know!

I always loved to remember the first day I came to this place. I can remember the dream I had in my mind and now the nightmares!

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Olds are Gold

I was looking for some illustrations, posters; some old things. Then I got the FIFA World Cup’s posters of all the previous years from their website. They are just wonderful.

I always found myself so backdated comparing with the people rest of the world and time. I think even if I were asked to design such a poster, I am sure I’ll not be able to reach the standard of the oldest one.

People in 1930 were smarter than me! You can find all the posters through this link.

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Miracle Happens

It’s really important to have some stories in life of being blessed – it’s really needed to make someone feel lucky. I should be thankful – my life is full of such stories.

sometime i really feel that i am here all because of my fortune – actually i don’t deserve all these things… that also frustrating! when i try to foresight my future, i can’t breathe… it seems more complicated… more heart breaking. i don’t know why but i just can’t find any good up there. now days i feel pain all around my brain. i know some other of my friends with the same problem and i think it’s a common rising problem of people of my age. few days ago at a certain moment i was dying for a place to let my sight vanished… a place to stand for few moments motionless. but i’ve felt very sorry to found that there is actually not such a single place in this city. i don’t know why i am still living… it shouldn’t be a life where there is no good ahead. i never wanted to see me so hopeless…

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limiting dreams

it’s very bad time… in every way. i can’t explain it and i can’t hold it. sometime it seems i am making it worst… why i am not ignoring it?


i was talking with one of my friend:

helal: wat u think abt nature:
me: i wish to die when i found it very beautiful
h: wat da definition of death to u?
m: the deepest sleep… i felt it sometime – forgetting about my existence… as if i am nothing
h: if u blv in religion – its not like tht – death is something different
m: i know that… but i have some other thinking – for bad the sleep is full of bad dreams – and for good… it’s painless
h: only romantic ppl speak like this – its not true – incorrect hypothesis – bad dreams and even pain vary among ppl – its all about how you preserve ur doings – because – dreams are projected from ur memory cell – if u can forget… dreams are always painless – some ppl even dont dream anything

h: death – some ppl await death

h: ppl die in some cases – even if they can take breathe
death is to me, the termination of some state
1. careness for anything/anybody
2. urge for any expected incident to be occurred
3. charm of life
m: well said – i agree
h: lol – and ppl expect death in some cases (except humaiyan the great)
1. when he/she finds no way out
2. when he/she cant tolerate the insult
3. when he/she loses the most precious thing(local idea) of his/her life
locality means the limitation of knowledge – wat he thinks true in local can be false in global – so as human being most of the time cant see the life as whole – his thoughts are limited
m: i don’t know so many things… but i am finding some similarities with my thinking
h: because in knowledge, i live in the same domain – so there must be similarities
m: to me… it probably could be an exit of the pain i am having now

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Born in Rain

I came to know from my mother that the day I was born was the 8th long consecutive day the sun wasn’t seen. It was raining and raining – all through the days and nights. May be that’s why I like rain a lot.

Last year on this day it was raining the same way and that was one of the most memorable rainy story of my life. I wanted it same way this year too.

Though it was raining in the last evening but now there is no sign. When it was raining I was on the street and there was a thought in my mind – what is the first thing I can remember from my childhood?

How many days I’ve already spent from my lifetime? I guess the bigger half is gone. Oh, there are lot to be done yet! What should I feel now. It’s better not to be worried and keep counting the rest part of my life.

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half full vs half empty!

summer :: rainy season :: nature
summer :: rainy season :: nature


first of all i’d like to add three of my recent works which i’ve done as my academic projects… as i’ve promised in my last post that i’ll let you know some updates about my work. well, i believe i am a good worker. so if you ask me about that, it’s normally a positive answer. i still have some running projects in my hand which i know will be appreciated. but i could find a gap somewhere in myself which really rising some question ahead me. what’s the problem with me? i always dream about a simple life… ‘simple but valuable’… at least valuable to me. but… i could find lots of ‘but’ which i don’t like. i don’t want to see me confused…

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I can see the season changing…

fire on bosundhora city shopping mall

I was thinking to write something as I think always. Sometime it happens like a fountain… words start coming… I just need to move my fingers. Who invented the keyboard first? The best thing of writing on a keyboard is you don’t have to bother what you are going to write. Well, I think my subject wasn’t ‘writing on a keyboard’. …So I was thinking to write something. It’s such a long time I didn’t write anything. now I am counting… how did I pass my time? Today, it was raining in the evening. It’s the first heavy rain of the year for this city. So it has feel outside that something has washed away and if I look through that window I have to reconsider my last comment “I can see the season changing when I look through the window. I can feel it sometime when I walk under the sun… everything getting so harsh… even me as well…

One more thing, whenever I saw other blogs, I found many useful things like some technical tips or something that might help with your works. But I am not sure… is there anything useful here… in describing my crazy thoughts? Well, I think better if I share some of my experiences. Now I am working with a project of redesigning country’s most popular newspaper website and as well thinking to redesign lifearoundme.com too. So let me finish these jobs. I have some stories to tell you…

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the year 2008

the year 2008

this post should be published earlier of this year as this was mostly written on 29 december of last year…

This is going to be the last post of the year and I was thinking about the whole year when writing it. The first thought that came to my mind is I am getting closer to a destination… this is weird thinking but obvious… I’ll die! I could remember one of my childhood friends who got sick and died within 24 hours before starting any serious treatment. I often remember him and still can’t believe though it happened 10 years before. Two weeks ago another known face disappeared though as far I remember I never talked with him. But after getting the news I can’t forget the face. And lastly, one of my uncles died last Monday who was one of most talented but has been treated as ‘wasted talent’… that’s a big story. So I am thinking about my death. What probably could happen then? I don’t know and I can’t guess anything but I am thinking lot about it…

Last Friday on my way back to home I was thinking and found myself so happy. 2008 should be said as a year of achievement… I’ve learned lot of things. I did some freelance works those probably mentionable. I did 2 big print design works for care Bangladesh by the first half of the year. On the second half I got the daily star website project which was a really new experience for me. As regular job in ebizzsol I have worked with several design projects within this year…like [1][2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8], [9], [10] and many more…

Before everything one thing is so important… the saddest part of life is to let a wrong person knows that you love her. I wish that’d be a life long lesson for me.

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it’s the life, around me…

thinking…

i am trying to feel the ‘thing’ which keep me busy all the time. I can’t separate a moment when actually I don’t think anything except may be the sleeping time. I am not sure… I can remember the dreams sometime, but may be my mind also keeps thinking when my body sleeps. Today on my way to office I was watching a man walking with a bunch of newspapers in his left hand. Suddenly a magazine dropped on the ground and he didn’t notice it. I think there were no other human witnessed this very silly incident. I don’t know why, I was terrified until the men came back after few moments and took the magazine… and then I thought may be that could be a story. Then suddenly another story came to my mind… few weeks back one day, on my way back to home I was talking with a rickshaw puller who was asking me about computer games. He was talking which games he mostly plays at home and why he likes those. Well, may be… actually it’s sure that I am not writing in the same way how I thought and I realized it that particular moment when I was thinking it. That means when I was thinking, I knew that I’ll be not able to write it exactly in the way I am thinking it… ha ha ha. So confusing! So then another thought came to my mind… how can I express my thinking in the exact way I think? I am still thinking and that keep me busy all the time…

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love around me :: when things go wrong

I am feeling jealous with those who think themselves happy in love matter. To me love is something so simple like every day’s life; you’d like to live for it. It becomes the most complicated when happens in wrong way. Before expressing, it’s not a big deal… it probably could create some deep sighs. But it could be the worst thing if it’s understood after expressing it to a wrong person. So people should think at least twice, thrice… as many times possible. It’s something you can’t withdraw. The saddest part of life is to let a wrong person know that you love her/him.

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walk in the rain

Its the eid day morning but its raining too hard. Its good; probably its going to wash away all the sorrows, anxieties… brings freshness, happiness. Now its really raining too hard. I got up early in the morning… too earlier than normal days. I was walking through the silent village paths. It was before the rain… nature seemed bit different in it look. Its dawn but its dark cloudy… something mysterious cinematic lighting. It started raining when I was middle of the way and before I start writing I was walking in the rain. Ha ha ha… so poetic!

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Look Through the Window

This is one of my favorite view. I often stand beside this window – I can see a lake, a canal taking the dumped water of the city to somewhere, a rail line, passing train, hurrying people, running vehicle, burning sun; even sometimes the gloomy moon!

Often I count the number of compartments of a train, sometimes try to realize how a day dissolve into night, try to figure out how many windows I can count – it’s endless.

Sometimes I think about how many people live in this city. I don’t know the number but I know everyone of them keep an individual world around them. It’s different from each other. It has joy, sorrow, complexity in their own way.

Few more pictures here.

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Love Around Me :: Love is a Matter of Practice!

It seems Anger, grief, jealousy, regret… these are different dimension of love. These are part of a chain reaction which happens with love. Nothing happens if there is no action like love.

I am thinking lot about this matter for last few days. Do love is a matter of practice? I am not sure but it seems like that. Nobody is more important in my life except me. Naturally we are so forgetful… as it’s a key point of our survival. Everyday we are adding new things to our memory which creating distances with the past.

Yesterday is like history – so today’s love could be a history by day after tomorrow if there is no update tomorrow.

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maresias…

sometime we need to burst into tears… the sorrows needed to spring out. but very few lucky person can make it. who can guarantee the happiness? its too relative… you can’t be sure. you can’t say you’ll be happy or sorry only for your own reasons… i don’t know how people could make such ‘perfect’ music. i am listening ‘maresias’ of dj robert miles in a loop… its so perfect for this moment. its taking me somewhere i don’t know… making me feel i am alone… thats happiness! i have some really very important work to do but can’t concentrate. the reasons are so silly but heart breaking. i need to burst…

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like the wind…

Sometime we should stay just alone… inside a cave if possible, to realize or to think or just only give us a space. These days I am passing too much time just inside my room… watching my watched favorite movies again and again, whispering with myself, sometime drawing, sleeping, taking notes from movie, book; writing words… meaningful, meaningless both; talking over phone, feeling happy… sometime worst. I was just watching a movie ‘a walk to remember’… i took few notes from this movie

love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful nor conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It doesn’t take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sin… but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope… and endure whatever comes.

I am not so good to understand all it says, but I liked it. I don’t know actually what I am thinking now. It’s the another good thing of being alone… you can keep your mind blank for minutes, hours… you can pass the time just think about nothing. In life there happen something which is ‘like the wind, i can’t see it but feel it’. Ha ha ha…

Tuesday 03:02 am
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forgetful…

sometime even a word could be enough to give up all the respects for a person. it could be meaningless, random… but you can’t avoid it. i always pray and expect so that i’d never pronounce such a word or anybody would do it to me. but i happens and has to pay big price. the good thing is human mind is so forgetful. so we lose and gain respect frequently.

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Working with typography :: the full set

bangla typography

The post working with typography got the highest visit among all the posts of this blog. It’s really wonderful. I am really grateful to them who commented there. They inspired me to create the full set of the typography. It’s really a work of patience. I could find many problems in the set after completing it. The more I am working with it, more I am learning. Hopefully I am going to make it as a ‘font’ so that I can use it when I type a sentence. It’ll need some more detailing and I also have to learn a font creating software. I’ll keep a copy here so that people can download it and check it. so keep in touch.

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work scope

sometime actually most of the time when I work, I feel myself so lucky that I have the opportunity to work (one thing should be clear: here work means which will bring you some money, food or fame or some other materialistic benefits). Leisure is good but it’s a really awful when you don’t have anything to do for a long time. So let us discuss how to make opportunities to work and definitely I’ll talk here from the perspective of a graphic designer.

1. Most importantly you need a job… no matter how much they are paying you. You need a platform to learn and show your talent.
2. It’s my belief that in this universe very few people are extra ordinary talented… real creative and definitely I am not among them. So when I work I never try to do any extra ordinary thing… don’t think that this work is going to be a milestone… I just try to understand what the client wants to say, I try to imagine a visual which ten other ordinary people also able to do. It always helps to reduce the pressure of the work.
3. Don’t be silent… share your ideas with your friends, colleagues… even sometime with the rickshaw pullers. It’ll help you to expand your work scope.
4. Patience is too important for a designer… there is no alternative. So keep practicing typography lot… it’ll help you to increase your skill and patience both.
5. Don’t give up any scope of work unless you are in a huge pressure. Sometime work just as volunteer… it helps building reputation.

Ha ha ha… so clever and wise writing! Did I ever follow any of these? I know you have your own way of working. Just keep the faith on you… you’ll be the part of the next history…

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completeness !!!

Sometime… actually very few moments I find myself so happy. It’s not like that the other times I am unhappy. But the point is that at some particular moment I could realize completeness of mine, a balance distribution of all my needs, so successful, so rich, and so lucky. The day before yesterday night it was drizzling and I was traveling by an open hood rickshaw. The weather was wonderful, the streets was blank… everything so calm, clean and comfortable. Suddenly I just realized ‘it’s the best time to die’! Completeness means an end of something. We like to live to fulfill some absences. So the feeling of some absences isn’t a bad thing actually. It could be inspiration, synonym of hope. So don’t feel sorry when you wake up middle of your sleep and check your cell and find nothing in missed call list or find yourself so alone at a Sunday evening. I should know the things I am thinking now aren’t so important in real life. Time doesn’t hear anything. It goes as it asked to go. We just are traveling with it…

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Back to the beginning

its me… 1993-1997

#1: 1993, as far i remember this was my first picture that was taken in a studio. #2: 1995, i think this time was real wonderful time for me. #3: i was getting tall and thin…

There was a sudden difference in usual life just for few hours. After 3-4 months I went to my village to see my parents. There were some noticeable changes. The muddy thin way turned into a concrete black pitch way and motor vehicle took the place instead of the rickshaw. I was bit upset watching all these developments. Life needs some differences… I don’t want to see all the boring modernity everywhere. I’ve spent some hours there all alone… under the full moon, overflowing everything with the moonlight and for the first time I realized the moon also has a ‘rise’ and ‘set’ time like the sun… when the sun sets in the west, at the same time the moon rises in the east. But I think it happens just for few certain days… I don’t know why. Well I got lot of time to think about myself… my past, present and future. I left my village 15 years back… I was just a homesick kid then. May be that was the actual beginning of the loop… I am moving around circles which are changing their diameter basing on the perspective of time. After 15 long years I found the same homesick kid just with a bit wider and more complex circle around him… is wishing whole heartedly to get back to the beginning… for a fresh start. But it’s impossible … he is in an own made loop which he possibly can’t break himself.

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… doesn’t lie

it’s a huge day. So the crowd is huge all around. I’ve started the day bit different than usual. The weather is too harsh… but it could be even worse if there weren’t few drops of rain last night. I found myself so stupid in the very first day of the year. Then I tried to start it usual way. I went to charukala… my own world. But it seemed everything mocking to me, which I couldn’t stand anymore. So I came back home, turn on the tv, watching a documentary about fishing. Then sat in front my pc and found some work to do and I’ve started feeling good. Machine doesn’t lie actually…

13:45, Monday
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Materialistic Emotion

As far I know I should have some particular ways of expressing my emotions that will present me as an individual. I am not sure if I have any. I am having some very bad feeling for some particular reasons and I wanted to express those as my instinct says. I want to go somewhere that I even don’t know, I want to be so isolate and shed some tears and wash away what hurting me.

But no way – my universe never allows me doing so. I have lot of targets to fulfil, many schedules to meet. I am not that much big person but I already could find so many obstacles around me.

Some people say it’s my personal problem. I should be able to break all these if I wish. Yes, I also think so and I desperately want to do so. But I don’t know why I can’t.

Well, don’t feel pity for me. I think I’ve exaggerated my thoughts a bit. But it’s true and I think many people in this materialistic life have similar problems like me.

It’s natural that my work should have the reflection of my mental condition. But it won’t happen if you work in a typical corporate environment. They maintain such a work flow where you will behave just like a machine and it doesn’t matter what you have in your mind. You are just a performer and you are bound to perform your roll as the script says.