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Walk without a Destination

It was a moonlighted night and we were sitting on a street. The moon was not so strong to overflow everything with her puzzling light but it was nearly sufficient for drawing the footsteps. I was thinking – may be it’s a dream. But it was drizzling to make me awake and realize it’s actually not a dream.

Before sitting on the street we have walked more than 7 miles in 2 hours, without a destination. Actually when we started, we had a destination but soon we lost it. We were six in a group, it was midnight and no one of us knew the exact path where we wanted to go.

It was a deep rural area, the way was muddy. First hour we didn’t even realize that we have lost our way. It was so exciting when we became sure that we have really lost our way.

Somehow we had reached our destination. It was like discovering the highest peak of the world. Then we spent the rest of the night motionless sitting on the street.

Now it seems that I just described a dream of mine!

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Back to the beginning

its me… 1993-1997

#1: 1993, as far i remember this was my first picture that was taken in a studio. #2: 1995, i think this time was real wonderful time for me. #3: i was getting tall and thin…

There was a sudden difference in usual life just for few hours. After 3-4 months I went to my village to see my parents. There were some noticeable changes. The muddy thin way turned into a concrete black pitch way and motor vehicle took the place instead of the rickshaw. I was bit upset watching all these developments. Life needs some differences… I don’t want to see all the boring modernity everywhere. I’ve spent some hours there all alone… under the full moon, overflowing everything with the moonlight and for the first time I realized the moon also has a ‘rise’ and ‘set’ time like the sun… when the sun sets in the west, at the same time the moon rises in the east. But I think it happens just for few certain days… I don’t know why. Well I got lot of time to think about myself… my past, present and future. I left my village 15 years back… I was just a homesick kid then. May be that was the actual beginning of the loop… I am moving around circles which are changing their diameter basing on the perspective of time. After 15 long years I found the same homesick kid just with a bit wider and more complex circle around him… is wishing whole heartedly to get back to the beginning… for a fresh start. But it’s impossible … he is in an own made loop which he possibly can’t break himself.

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Love Around Me :: Love Made Visible

My concept about love has changed within last few months. It seems so easy, again more complicated than I’ve imagined. But it’s true that love made many things visible to me. I never find myself that much emotional before. I always kept a strategy – never tell the girl how you feel about her, just keep it inside you. Well, I had some logics for such attitude which are not working now.

… and it makes you feel that a rain drop isn’t just a drop of water!

The Wise Donkey

Love let you pick colours from whatever you see, it makes you concern that when the moon gets the biggest shape, and it makes you feel that a rain drop isn’t just a drop of water. Again it’ll let you find some pain that you might never felt… shed your tears no matter how tough person you are or even make the total life meaningless though you are very successful in your professional or academic life.

Years back I saw a movie Enemy at the Gate where the story was about two soldiers who fallen in love with a same girl. A war isn’t always a conflict between two nations. Love causes war too. If you don’t agree with me that means you have to fall in love very soon.

Disclaimer: Don’t take the war part as a funny matter – it’s serious and true. You can find hundreds of example from the history of the world.

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Bandarban for the Second Time

This time I became sure that mountains are beautiful during the rainy season. Everything seems clean and fresh that time though leaches could suck your blood.

Its winter and the weather is dry and rough. We went through the same foot prints those we drew on last May [read the previous story]. But this time we were in a small group with less team spirit and glamour.

I had to fight a lot to manage the time. I keep recalling my memories all through the way. We reached the peak of Boga Lake by the evening of 29 December. We were prepared to face a hard cold but the weather was much warmer than the city.

The home where we lived this time was a cool place than last time. It was very comfortable in every way. On 30 December some of our friend went to the peak of Keokradong. We were out of all networks and that was the biggest relaxation. No regular schedule, no hurry, no boss, no computer, no mobile. Drinking water from the lake, having tasteless same food in breakfast, lunch and dinner with a great eagerness; trying to enjoy every single moment.

On 31, the sun set with great sorrow from sky of Boga Lake area. A deadly road accident happened on the hilly way to Boga Lake, took a death toll of 4 persons.

At the earlier night someone brought a dead Cobra. He said it attacked him on the way so that he smashed the head. It brought lot of excitement to the tribal and as well as the tourists. They cooked the cobra and many of our friends took it with a great excitement.

We set a fire and roasted a goat. On the first moment of New Year everyone start dancing. The night grew older and moon started shining from behind the big mountains. That was the nicest part of the whole tour.

Next morning we got up with a spirit to walk 17 kilometer way back. I walked the same way last time but this time it was too hard. The sun was burning all the time. Once it happened that we finished the last drop of water and had to walk another hour to find a water source.

All tiredness came zero when I took a long bath in the river Sangu. I am considering it as the biggest achievement of the whole tour. Ruma bazaar is too known to us and we spend few useless hours there. Some of us wanted to get back earlier to Banadarban. But most of us liked to stay motionless.

On 2nd day January, we start our journey back to Dhaka. There was a huge traffic jam on the way. Overall it was a great time… but not so great as it was before.

Ok, I’ve learnt few things,

  • He is a foolish who pretends to be a good, sober person all the time.
  • Out of sight out mind isn’t always true. Sometime you should go far to measure the depth of your sight.