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it’s the life, around me…

thinking…

i am trying to feel the ‘thing’ which keep me busy all the time. I can’t separate a moment when actually I don’t think anything except may be the sleeping time. I am not sure… I can remember the dreams sometime, but may be my mind also keeps thinking when my body sleeps. Today on my way to office I was watching a man walking with a bunch of newspapers in his left hand. Suddenly a magazine dropped on the ground and he didn’t notice it. I think there were no other human witnessed this very silly incident. I don’t know why, I was terrified until the men came back after few moments and took the magazine… and then I thought may be that could be a story. Then suddenly another story came to my mind… few weeks back one day, on my way back to home I was talking with a rickshaw puller who was asking me about computer games. He was talking which games he mostly plays at home and why he likes those. Well, may be… actually it’s sure that I am not writing in the same way how I thought and I realized it that particular moment when I was thinking it. That means when I was thinking, I knew that I’ll be not able to write it exactly in the way I am thinking it… ha ha ha. So confusing! So then another thought came to my mind… how can I express my thinking in the exact way I think? I am still thinking and that keep me busy all the time…

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madness Process Typography Work

work scope

sometime actually most of the time when I work, I feel myself so lucky that I have the opportunity to work (one thing should be clear: here work means which will bring you some money, food or fame or some other materialistic benefits). Leisure is good but it’s a really awful when you don’t have anything to do for a long time. So let us discuss how to make opportunities to work and definitely I’ll talk here from the perspective of a graphic designer.

1. Most importantly you need a job… no matter how much they are paying you. You need a platform to learn and show your talent.
2. It’s my belief that in this universe very few people are extra ordinary talented… real creative and definitely I am not among them. So when I work I never try to do any extra ordinary thing… don’t think that this work is going to be a milestone… I just try to understand what the client wants to say, I try to imagine a visual which ten other ordinary people also able to do. It always helps to reduce the pressure of the work.
3. Don’t be silent… share your ideas with your friends, colleagues… even sometime with the rickshaw pullers. It’ll help you to expand your work scope.
4. Patience is too important for a designer… there is no alternative. So keep practicing typography lot… it’ll help you to increase your skill and patience both.
5. Don’t give up any scope of work unless you are in a huge pressure. Sometime work just as volunteer… it helps building reputation.

Ha ha ha… so clever and wise writing! Did I ever follow any of these? I know you have your own way of working. Just keep the faith on you… you’ll be the part of the next history…

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madness Process Universe

completeness !!!

Sometime… actually very few moments I find myself so happy. It’s not like that the other times I am unhappy. But the point is that at some particular moment I could realize completeness of mine, a balance distribution of all my needs, so successful, so rich, and so lucky. The day before yesterday night it was drizzling and I was traveling by an open hood rickshaw. The weather was wonderful, the streets was blank… everything so calm, clean and comfortable. Suddenly I just realized ‘it’s the best time to die’! Completeness means an end of something. We like to live to fulfill some absences. So the feeling of some absences isn’t a bad thing actually. It could be inspiration, synonym of hope. So don’t feel sorry when you wake up middle of your sleep and check your cell and find nothing in missed call list or find yourself so alone at a Sunday evening. I should know the things I am thinking now aren’t so important in real life. Time doesn’t hear anything. It goes as it asked to go. We just are traveling with it…

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Back to the beginning

its me… 1993-1997

#1: 1993, as far i remember this was my first picture that was taken in a studio. #2: 1995, i think this time was real wonderful time for me. #3: i was getting tall and thin…

There was a sudden difference in usual life just for few hours. After 3-4 months I went to my village to see my parents. There were some noticeable changes. The muddy thin way turned into a concrete black pitch way and motor vehicle took the place instead of the rickshaw. I was bit upset watching all these developments. Life needs some differences… I don’t want to see all the boring modernity everywhere. I’ve spent some hours there all alone… under the full moon, overflowing everything with the moonlight and for the first time I realized the moon also has a ‘rise’ and ‘set’ time like the sun… when the sun sets in the west, at the same time the moon rises in the east. But I think it happens just for few certain days… I don’t know why. Well I got lot of time to think about myself… my past, present and future. I left my village 15 years back… I was just a homesick kid then. May be that was the actual beginning of the loop… I am moving around circles which are changing their diameter basing on the perspective of time. After 15 long years I found the same homesick kid just with a bit wider and more complex circle around him… is wishing whole heartedly to get back to the beginning… for a fresh start. But it’s impossible … he is in an own made loop which he possibly can’t break himself.

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Process Universe

Three stories

1. The biggest festival Eid-ul-Azha is knocking on the door. People are hurrying to buy cattle. You could see hundreds of happy ‘cowboy’ on the streets. I think people enjoy this part of the eid very much. But there are some other anxieties that might happen. Today on the way to my home I saw a small crowd. I stopped there to see what happened. A bull was lying down on the ground motionlessly and the ‘cowboy’ was very disappointed with the situation. Normally during the eid season the cattle traders bring these cattle from different parts of the country and abroad. Sometime it takes weeks and the cattle starve most of the time.

2. It was my sister’s wedding anniversary and I was thinking to present them something. I am not in a position to give them an expensive present. Flowers came to my mind and I thought it would be great. But suddenly I got busy with some other job and forgot to buy them. Then I got a call from my sister and they offered me a dinner in a restaurant. I went there with bare hands. I was feeling little bad for not being able to present them at least some flowers. It was almost late night when we get back home and most of the shops were closed. But suddenly I saw the only one flowers shop of our area is still open. It made me feel very good. I bought a bunch of flowers and give it to my sister immediately. My nephew was very happy and he told me that he’ll present me such flowers when I’ll throw such a party…

3. Few minutes ago I got a message. This was a good time for getting the message for which I was expecting all through the day. I was on the rickshaw and I couldn’t able to see the message just after the message tone. I was hoping whole heartedly that it’ll be the desired message and I was taking time to see it. I came to my room, turned on the light, took a deep breath, unlock my mobile and then saw the message with a big expectation. It’s a silly slang from one of my friend! Everything turned into blank. I know this friend of mine never realized that his message could affect me so badly. My brain didn’t work for few minutes… then I realized I shouldn’t blame him. It’s my fault. I should be aware properly about what I can expect and what I can’t.

19.12.07, 11:45pm
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Universe

A Falling Leaf

These days I try to study hard as the preparation of GRE. There are too things to study but I don’t get much time for that. So often I utilize the time when I travel by a rickshaw.

Today I was on the way to office and I was busy with the GRE word list. Suddenly a brown leaf fallen on my papers breaking my concentration. It was like the nature is protesting my avoidance to her. So I took the leaf in my bag and brought it to office.

Lastly now after taking a photograph I am going to publish it with few words.