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madness Process sleepless nights Universe

it’s the life, around me…

thinking…

i am trying to feel the ‘thing’ which keep me busy all the time. I can’t separate a moment when actually I don’t think anything except may be the sleeping time. I am not sure… I can remember the dreams sometime, but may be my mind also keeps thinking when my body sleeps. Today on my way to office I was watching a man walking with a bunch of newspapers in his left hand. Suddenly a magazine dropped on the ground and he didn’t notice it. I think there were no other human witnessed this very silly incident. I don’t know why, I was terrified until the men came back after few moments and took the magazine… and then I thought may be that could be a story. Then suddenly another story came to my mind… few weeks back one day, on my way back to home I was talking with a rickshaw puller who was asking me about computer games. He was talking which games he mostly plays at home and why he likes those. Well, may be… actually it’s sure that I am not writing in the same way how I thought and I realized it that particular moment when I was thinking it. That means when I was thinking, I knew that I’ll be not able to write it exactly in the way I am thinking it… ha ha ha. So confusing! So then another thought came to my mind… how can I express my thinking in the exact way I think? I am still thinking and that keep me busy all the time…

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exam madness Universe

Breakdown

I got the mark sheet of bfa final year exam yesterday which made me realize how bad student I am. I was never a good student and to be true I don’t have the quality to gain a brilliant academic result. But I always like to act as if I am a good student… how foolish I am! After getting the mark sheet, I went to the chairman of the examination to ask him about it. I was trembling and I didn’t find anything to say… I could remember my works that I did for the exam and realize how silly works these were! Sometime I loose my respect to my teachers when they failed teaches me to respect myself.
needed 7 long years to gain this piece of paper…

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Process Universe

Three stories

1. The biggest festival Eid-ul-Azha is knocking on the door. People are hurrying to buy cattle. You could see hundreds of happy ‘cowboy’ on the streets. I think people enjoy this part of the eid very much. But there are some other anxieties that might happen. Today on the way to my home I saw a small crowd. I stopped there to see what happened. A bull was lying down on the ground motionlessly and the ‘cowboy’ was very disappointed with the situation. Normally during the eid season the cattle traders bring these cattle from different parts of the country and abroad. Sometime it takes weeks and the cattle starve most of the time.

2. It was my sister’s wedding anniversary and I was thinking to present them something. I am not in a position to give them an expensive present. Flowers came to my mind and I thought it would be great. But suddenly I got busy with some other job and forgot to buy them. Then I got a call from my sister and they offered me a dinner in a restaurant. I went there with bare hands. I was feeling little bad for not being able to present them at least some flowers. It was almost late night when we get back home and most of the shops were closed. But suddenly I saw the only one flowers shop of our area is still open. It made me feel very good. I bought a bunch of flowers and give it to my sister immediately. My nephew was very happy and he told me that he’ll present me such flowers when I’ll throw such a party…

3. Few minutes ago I got a message. This was a good time for getting the message for which I was expecting all through the day. I was on the rickshaw and I couldn’t able to see the message just after the message tone. I was hoping whole heartedly that it’ll be the desired message and I was taking time to see it. I came to my room, turned on the light, took a deep breath, unlock my mobile and then saw the message with a big expectation. It’s a silly slang from one of my friend! Everything turned into blank. I know this friend of mine never realized that his message could affect me so badly. My brain didn’t work for few minutes… then I realized I shouldn’t blame him. It’s my fault. I should be aware properly about what I can expect and what I can’t.

19.12.07, 11:45pm
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Universe

Love Around Me :: Love is a Problem

I’ve published a post in my previous blog about LOVE few months ago. So far it’s still one of my best writings. Well it’s not a big deal, but I yet didn’t able to say that girl about what I feel about her. Though I’m not sure if it’s called ‘love’ but this is still the biggest mystery to me.

To be honest, I often find myself thinking about this girl. I’m sure she has no idea about it and now when I’m writing this line, it seems something very silly. But again, it’s damn true.

May be that’s the most interesting part of love – it may sounds silly but no way to overlook. Sometime I find myself so unlucky, again so lucky!

Love could be a problem but we dare to face that problem, everyday.